why that day ..
was in there, that day
cos she had lost it . the place was a mess
and the regulators were there
wheely bin used me as blame
that other bitch margaret calling me 'that thing'
yeah it all fits
it was all my fault, wasn't it
that fking prick .. this is the level.. they had it all sorted in their
tiny little scenario. that, I was the problem
shed mebbe built it up that shed inherited a mess because, because of my
'system' that horrible thing
pc breaking down cables breaking down
nothing maintained - maintainer arrives back a mess, broken
im carrying that £400 'diamond' the fking cheapest. levenshulme road they
were 'diamond' the cheapest in the whole of computer shopper it was
486dx2 without a fan .. they got a whole aircon unit on top of it .. they
are standing around freezing, i was freezing. carrying this pos fking
£400 then pc when they weere £1k out and hes glaring at me , rite down
the corridor to some shitty room with stacks of compaqs (better, with
fans). 1 @ least eventually used again, to some extent. they all sitting
there waiting execution, dead.
im back there putting it in sweating no fking way this whole shit is like.
i couldn't even remember. fixing semi-transient problems she relayed to
me. the system heavily used, unbelievably running their whole fking shop
but nothing, finally understood.
but the blame "it's all your fault" .. and where was he (3m) phoning him
from there, 'wtf' as if 'not my problem gov. etc' .. marginally
getting info saying 'its all fucked here, wtf' 'and 'regulators''
i get 'just replace it' .. etc. then i get stiffed
for the fking money for the 'expenses' agreed
then i go nuts then ppl ask why
then i go nuts just asking for the fking basic money i agreed to in
getting involved in that fking shit.
that meant nothing
that they threw away, anyway
that it all went to a skip outside, like you know .. was getting old
drives, years later .. recycled drives .. i had one with marker pen on it
BLOOD. thought 'thats from a lab that' .. 1 of many systems.
mebbe there was some progress, mebbe there was some understanding
mebbe it meant more, here than a painter, decorator
nobody stickingg around
tories.. was reading that .. reading the last of the book about labour
'end of the party' .. the conservative vote share in 2010 was far less ..
it was 16 percent wasn't it. they were behind the lib dems and labour.
but they ended up running it. i didn't like miliband
but i know now .. brown should have held on .. it should have been a
brown deal. he should have held on and dealt
because liberal democrats/guardian = tories
it hasn't finished
they'll destroy labour in another election, the guardian will
they are tories
i still know the code, anyway
wherever it went
it was 75k of source code
the shit i am working on was up to 40k couuple months ago
now its down to 20k
it wasn't as much as that
it was a lot of work
it was a lot of focus
more than 'essays' from idiots